14 We know that the law is holy. But I am not. I have been sold to be a slave of sin. 15 I don’t understand what I do. I don’t do what I want to do. Instead, I do what I hate to do. 16 I do what I don’t want to do. So I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, I am no longer the one who does these things. It is sin living in me that does them. 18 I know there is nothing good in my desires controlled by sin. I want to do what is good, but I can’t. 19 I don’t do the good things I want to do. I keep on doing the evil things I don’t want to do. 20 I do what I don’t want to do. But I am not really the one who is doing it. It is sin living in me that does it. 21 Here is the law I find working in me. When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 Deep inside me I find joy in God’s law. 23 But I see another law working in me. It fights against the law of my mind. It makes me a prisoner of the law of sin. That law controls me. 24 What a terrible failure I am! Who will save me from this sin that brings death to my body? 25 I give thanks to God who saves me. He saves me through Jesus Christ our Lord. So in my mind I am a slave to God’s law. But sin controls my desires. So I am a slave to the law of sin.
I’ve heard it said one of the best and most honest prayers we can pray is “Oh God have mercy on me a sinner.” I don’t know about you but I long for the day that my sin won’t be an issue any more; when this wretched man is gone and replaced by the clean version of me who’s ready for heaven.
In the mean time I find a strange comfort; the dread and sorrow at my own short-comings is, in one sense, a gift. They show me that I am different and changing – I don’t want to do the things I used to do. I didn’t manufacture this longing for rightness. God did that! The only way that could ever happen is if He is in my life. What a great encouragement!
And in the end I run even harder to Jesus. He, and He alone is my righteousness! It is His righteousness that makes me fit for heaven, not my own. The answer really is Jesus!
Thank you Jesus for paying the penalty of my sin on the cross and offering me back your righteousness. With a grateful heart I humbly accept. Amen
Written by Boudy van Noppen